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Sep. 19th, 2016 01:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
waxbox.... Okay, so I got to some crazy parts in Mr. Robot. I was not expecting some of that shit, like at all. My brain is still reeling and poor Elliot is a loony motherfucker. I just want to hug him.
I have to rewatch episode 1 of season 2 now, so I can see what goes down. It still doesn't add up.
And my mom was supposed to be up here hours ago to help me move my bed to the other room. I am not about to be in here with spiders tomorrow. I'll go get her after this episode.
And I finally answered posts at it is strange. I want more to respond to though. I'm thinking of making a little boy in the form of Colin Ford, especially since people haven't been applying for those they held. Meaning, the children are teh open and they must be made. I just gotta come up with a character concept, background and his fears. I don't want him to be cookie cutter, or have a deeply depressing background. Just a little boy, with potential issues but he'll make it through life.
Childhood Bipolar? A trouble maker but has a good heart? idk. I should talk it out here, so I have a way to get my character together. I also need an invite code and since I just made a journal for Elliot over there, I won't have one for a week, so I'll have to wait.
Which yes! I'm jumping the gun and going to play Elliot in a multifandom game if I get accepted. I'm pretty sure i can handle it and I'm not panicking like I do with Dean and Sam. No clue why, especially when the character is someone who would be extremely difficult to play. I think maybe it's because I understand the whole paranoia and delusions thing. Even though I honestly don't think they are. *insert eye roll here.*
Well, I don't hack, so I don't understand that, as I respect people's privacy but I can understand feeling utterly alone and only being able to quench that feeling by delving into other people's personal lives and being close to them from a distance as you gather all their personal details that only a bestfriend or your own inner self would know.
I guess the reason I panic at handling Dean is because he has all these pop culture references, and I'm like not good at those. Well as flirting. I fail at that like hell, unless it's subtle flirting and Dean isn't subtle as far as I know. And Sam, I do better with but he's not Dean, so I have a hard time keeping interested as I play him. It's really hard to describe to be perfectly honest.
Elliot is different from that, all that pessisim and reality he shoves down his own throat, while half living in a fantasy ... well, I used to be like that a lot. A hell of a lot. I'm still fucking pessismistic. (I'm failing at spelling that word) Imaginary friends? Yeah, been there, done that. I was a lonely teen. Though I realize Elliot is actually talking to the viewer, it's still part of canon.
It'll take me a couple days to finish these two seasons, and then watch episode 12 on the 21st before i app him. Then rewatch before then, so I can get his inner voice right. I know I can do it, I'm actually pretty fucking confident that I can. I might put up an HMD because I want to get him right and do right by the character, but I won't take someone slandering me or making a big deal out of little things. Then again I might not, because I don't want to blow my confidence. My confidence with Seifer is still pretty shaken and I'm trying to find his voice again.
ALSO! I got an awesome username for Elliot. iamrobot :D I snabbed it both here and on insanejournal. I just hope I'm not spoiling shit for people who haven't gotten that far in yet... heh but I figure hell, if you haven't watched it this far, then you'll be spoiled anyway, by everyone.
Anyway, if my sister isn't too pissed or whatever, we might allow our friend to stay here for a month but she can't have any drug activity in the house and other things she does. I told her that straight up and when I have study, she can't interrupt. She does that sometimes and it's embarrassing, especially when my teacher and her friend are uncomfortable looking and stuff by the situation. Which reminds me, I have study this afternoon and that means I'll have to head to bed soon.
Okay, I'm gonna go downstairs and see if my mom is going to come help me, then watch the rest of these episodes. I wonder what the hell is gonna happen next.
I have to rewatch episode 1 of season 2 now, so I can see what goes down. It still doesn't add up.
And my mom was supposed to be up here hours ago to help me move my bed to the other room. I am not about to be in here with spiders tomorrow. I'll go get her after this episode.
And I finally answered posts at it is strange. I want more to respond to though. I'm thinking of making a little boy in the form of Colin Ford, especially since people haven't been applying for those they held. Meaning, the children are teh open and they must be made. I just gotta come up with a character concept, background and his fears. I don't want him to be cookie cutter, or have a deeply depressing background. Just a little boy, with potential issues but he'll make it through life.
Childhood Bipolar? A trouble maker but has a good heart? idk. I should talk it out here, so I have a way to get my character together. I also need an invite code and since I just made a journal for Elliot over there, I won't have one for a week, so I'll have to wait.
Which yes! I'm jumping the gun and going to play Elliot in a multifandom game if I get accepted. I'm pretty sure i can handle it and I'm not panicking like I do with Dean and Sam. No clue why, especially when the character is someone who would be extremely difficult to play. I think maybe it's because I understand the whole paranoia and delusions thing. Even though I honestly don't think they are. *insert eye roll here.*
Well, I don't hack, so I don't understand that, as I respect people's privacy but I can understand feeling utterly alone and only being able to quench that feeling by delving into other people's personal lives and being close to them from a distance as you gather all their personal details that only a bestfriend or your own inner self would know.
I guess the reason I panic at handling Dean is because he has all these pop culture references, and I'm like not good at those. Well as flirting. I fail at that like hell, unless it's subtle flirting and Dean isn't subtle as far as I know. And Sam, I do better with but he's not Dean, so I have a hard time keeping interested as I play him. It's really hard to describe to be perfectly honest.
Elliot is different from that, all that pessisim and reality he shoves down his own throat, while half living in a fantasy ... well, I used to be like that a lot. A hell of a lot. I'm still fucking pessismistic. (I'm failing at spelling that word) Imaginary friends? Yeah, been there, done that. I was a lonely teen. Though I realize Elliot is actually talking to the viewer, it's still part of canon.
It'll take me a couple days to finish these two seasons, and then watch episode 12 on the 21st before i app him. Then rewatch before then, so I can get his inner voice right. I know I can do it, I'm actually pretty fucking confident that I can. I might put up an HMD because I want to get him right and do right by the character, but I won't take someone slandering me or making a big deal out of little things. Then again I might not, because I don't want to blow my confidence. My confidence with Seifer is still pretty shaken and I'm trying to find his voice again.
ALSO! I got an awesome username for Elliot. iamrobot :D I snabbed it both here and on insanejournal. I just hope I'm not spoiling shit for people who haven't gotten that far in yet... heh but I figure hell, if you haven't watched it this far, then you'll be spoiled anyway, by everyone.
Anyway, if my sister isn't too pissed or whatever, we might allow our friend to stay here for a month but she can't have any drug activity in the house and other things she does. I told her that straight up and when I have study, she can't interrupt. She does that sometimes and it's embarrassing, especially when my teacher and her friend are uncomfortable looking and stuff by the situation. Which reminds me, I have study this afternoon and that means I'll have to head to bed soon.
Okay, I'm gonna go downstairs and see if my mom is going to come help me, then watch the rest of these episodes. I wonder what the hell is gonna happen next.
