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I submitted my app of Elliot to a game. I hope the personality and sample are up to par. The personality ended up being over 1600 words, and that's without beating a dead horse like I had been before. It makes a little more sense too. Still no feat, but I did better. The sample was simple too, but of course, I'll have to write Mr. Robot too, which I didn't do. He'll be more difficult, because I have to write Elliot as him and Elliot seeing the hallucination. talk about crazy, right?
I was going to write an OC/Josh Washington story, but I think I'll switch up the pairing to Josh/Elliot, AU. Idk, Main CharacterxOC bores me, even when I want to write them. And I always want to do them perfectly too, with a build. As a teenager though, I loved that shit. Loveeeeeddddd it. ... Which is why I wrote it on paper all the time. XDD;
No instantaneous bullshit. I found a fic earlier where Elliot was getting high with the reader, moi and all of a sudden he was comfortable laying on the bed with reader and dirty dancing. Like no, just no, even High he has his reservations. Nothing against the author, it's fanfiction, but just no. I did read a fic with Josh/Reader i think last night and it was pretty good. He didn't think the reader was gorgeous or anything. The only thing I didn't care for was the instant connection they had but it was good, especially the sequel. There was also no smut, I rather liked that.
I'm still grossed out by Tyrell.
I miss Shayla. I rewatched episode 7 of season 1 and I just miss her so much. I wish they had never killed her, it's so unfair. I think it was after the flashback that really did it in. Like, he opened up to her in his own way and it was so sweet.
I rewatched Until Dawn, and I'm still angry at Wendigo Josh. ;; Wry couldn't he have lived? WRRRRRRRY? think I'll write more Elliot/Josh, but from Josh's POV. I'm a weirdo and do better writing Elliot in roleplay more than fanfiction. Josh is easy but I am not witty, so it'll be halfway difficult.
HOW ABOUT ALIEN INVASION!?
ZOMBIE APOCALYSPE?
UNCHARTED LIKE ADVENTURE?
DEMONS!?
IDK. SOMETHING ELLIOT/JOSH. With smut. I need some Esmut. I feel like Elliot is a bottom and Josh is a top though. or the reverse. Because Elliot often doesn't fight back and shit unless cornered, in the bedroom he's actually quite the animal. I mean, they never shared his sexy time with Shayla. Just the aftermath of him laying in bed with her. All the frustration and loneliness poured into some hardcore ... I'm getting graphic but you know. *waggles eyebrows.*
I'm going with demons, even though I want to say Zombie Apocalypse. I get bored too easy with them, and don't want to finish. DEAMONS, MAN. DEAMONS.
I rant about fandom shit. I realize heh
The voices haven't been bothering me, they won't for at least another two and a half weeks. I'll be a paranoid fuck around then. Back to worrying everyone is against me and hates me for one reason or another. (I'm pretty sure I'm about seventy percent right)
Until then! I'll enjoy my fandoming, chillaxing and having a good time. Reading fanfic and writing it as it comes to me. (Sam x Josh is my poison. And there are not enough Elliot x person other than Tyrell fics... *groans and gags* )
*crosses fingers.* If I'm accepted, which I'm guessing I might not be. I hope I can pull this off. I mean, there's gotta be a reason people aren't playing Elliot. He's a popular character and I've only seen him played somewhere on dreamwidth. I can't even remember where. Infact, it might not have even been him, I just saw Mr. Robot in a fandom section before characters, before I was a fan of the show.
If other people aren't doing it? How the fuck can I expect to? (I'm sure somewhere, someone is playing and I'm just missing it) but I'm not nervous, nervous. Like I get with Dean. Dean is difficult for me to grasp, because only certain parts I identify with. Elliot is like super identifiable for me and that's what makes me nervous. What if I'm overshooting it and don't get everything right? What if i can't add complexity to an already complex character?
Fuck it, I'm putting up an HMD. I want to be good at him. Getting perspective from others isn't a bad thing.
*whispers.* if accepted. keep creepy tyrell 'elliot is my god' wellick away from him... though it'd be fun interacting and building a friendship beyond the creepy XDD I just think my Elliot would be seriously weirded out by the whole thing. I can't see Elliot as gay but maybe season 3 will unfortunately surprise me with Tyrell/Elliot. *wrinkles nose.* I can see him with any dude but Tyrell really.
*cries tears.* sjdknsnd DON'T DO IT ESMAIL. DO NOT. ;; *hiccups.* A year and some more. Whhhhhhyyy?
I was going to write an OC/Josh Washington story, but I think I'll switch up the pairing to Josh/Elliot, AU. Idk, Main CharacterxOC bores me, even when I want to write them. And I always want to do them perfectly too, with a build. As a teenager though, I loved that shit. Loveeeeeddddd it. ... Which is why I wrote it on paper all the time. XDD;
No instantaneous bullshit. I found a fic earlier where Elliot was getting high with the reader, moi and all of a sudden he was comfortable laying on the bed with reader and dirty dancing. Like no, just no, even High he has his reservations. Nothing against the author, it's fanfiction, but just no. I did read a fic with Josh/Reader i think last night and it was pretty good. He didn't think the reader was gorgeous or anything. The only thing I didn't care for was the instant connection they had but it was good, especially the sequel. There was also no smut, I rather liked that.
I'm still grossed out by Tyrell.
I miss Shayla. I rewatched episode 7 of season 1 and I just miss her so much. I wish they had never killed her, it's so unfair. I think it was after the flashback that really did it in. Like, he opened up to her in his own way and it was so sweet.
I rewatched Until Dawn, and I'm still angry at Wendigo Josh. ;; Wry couldn't he have lived? WRRRRRRRY? think I'll write more Elliot/Josh, but from Josh's POV. I'm a weirdo and do better writing Elliot in roleplay more than fanfiction. Josh is easy but I am not witty, so it'll be halfway difficult.
HOW ABOUT ALIEN INVASION!?
ZOMBIE APOCALYSPE?
UNCHARTED LIKE ADVENTURE?
DEMONS!?
IDK. SOMETHING ELLIOT/JOSH. With smut. I need some Esmut. I feel like Elliot is a bottom and Josh is a top though. or the reverse. Because Elliot often doesn't fight back and shit unless cornered, in the bedroom he's actually quite the animal. I mean, they never shared his sexy time with Shayla. Just the aftermath of him laying in bed with her. All the frustration and loneliness poured into some hardcore ... I'm getting graphic but you know. *waggles eyebrows.*
I'm going with demons, even though I want to say Zombie Apocalypse. I get bored too easy with them, and don't want to finish. DEAMONS, MAN. DEAMONS.
I rant about fandom shit. I realize heh
The voices haven't been bothering me, they won't for at least another two and a half weeks. I'll be a paranoid fuck around then. Back to worrying everyone is against me and hates me for one reason or another. (I'm pretty sure I'm about seventy percent right)
Until then! I'll enjoy my fandoming, chillaxing and having a good time. Reading fanfic and writing it as it comes to me. (Sam x Josh is my poison. And there are not enough Elliot x person other than Tyrell fics... *groans and gags* )
*crosses fingers.* If I'm accepted, which I'm guessing I might not be. I hope I can pull this off. I mean, there's gotta be a reason people aren't playing Elliot. He's a popular character and I've only seen him played somewhere on dreamwidth. I can't even remember where. Infact, it might not have even been him, I just saw Mr. Robot in a fandom section before characters, before I was a fan of the show.
If other people aren't doing it? How the fuck can I expect to? (I'm sure somewhere, someone is playing and I'm just missing it) but I'm not nervous, nervous. Like I get with Dean. Dean is difficult for me to grasp, because only certain parts I identify with. Elliot is like super identifiable for me and that's what makes me nervous. What if I'm overshooting it and don't get everything right? What if i can't add complexity to an already complex character?
Fuck it, I'm putting up an HMD. I want to be good at him. Getting perspective from others isn't a bad thing.
*whispers.* if accepted. keep creepy tyrell 'elliot is my god' wellick away from him... though it'd be fun interacting and building a friendship beyond the creepy XDD I just think my Elliot would be seriously weirded out by the whole thing. I can't see Elliot as gay but maybe season 3 will unfortunately surprise me with Tyrell/Elliot. *wrinkles nose.* I can see him with any dude but Tyrell really.
*cries tears.* sjdknsnd DON'T DO IT ESMAIL. DO NOT. ;; *hiccups.* A year and some more. Whhhhhhyyy?