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Sep. 26th, 2016 01:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
waxboxYou know what? I give up on Dreamwidth roleplay. One place wants you to use canon examples, another wants you to just use personality and keep it to a minimum. Another wants more. Wtf do people want here? > < It's honestly not worth it in the end. I'd rather keep my headspace and hope I continue being able to play over at IJ. At least they don't care nearly as much and don't expect you to be perfect.
Also, something in the midsection would not be suicide. It was implied he was shot, as Elliot has has not been suicidal in the show, as far as I know. I forgot the trigger warning, I was scatterbrained and I think that's a silly rejection based upon that. Annnnnnd... my tenses do go strange. I'd apologize for it, but it's not serious business, so I don't care.
Honestly, I was hoping I'd get rejected anyway.I'd rather play him on IJ. I'm getting good practice and stuff, so hopefully I'm able to write him without much trouble eventually.
Like I said, not even mad. The only reason I'm wanting is because I don't understand people's need for perfection in writing. Absolutely no one is perfect, and no one is going to be constantly perfect at writing. There's somedays where my writing is great, other days where I suck. My writing style varies. Honestly, it does. I try to stick to the same, for each character but it's hard especially when my moods change.
Anyway, I'm gonna play a vampire using his face if I'm accepted over there. It won't be nearly as crazy as my Elliot personality. ... Which can't be helped. I think as long as it's not those pslad games, I'll be fine. Those tend to lean toward being a little needing to be perfect too, but, buuuuut I've only been rejected from one. That didn't really bother me too much either, just that they didn't give a reason and declined me without one. That's pretty much stupid. Everyone should be given reasons and a chance to revise.
Whenever I run games, I don't even reject. Long as they don't write in first person. I can't stand first person. It's the bane of my existence.
Right DW Rp. I'm tired of worrying about being perfect in my characterization and writing. It's no good for my paranoia, or my brain in general. It's draining. In a few days, I'm going to drop my characters here and enjoy playing elsewhere.
And no, I won't stop writing in you DW journal. I do like dreamwidth for this. Is puuuuuurrrrfect.
Let's talk a little about Vampire!Anrei. He's a psycho, well a somewhat relaxed psycho. He's a bit based off Damon Salvatore. Alcoholic, bloodlust, toys with people, their emotions and their lives. Gets enjoyment out of fucking them up and over. He loves cats, tea, and cigarettes. I think I might change tea to coffee, because he seems like he'd drink a vanilla cap with a cigarette in the evenings after he wakes up from his dirt nap. I'm thinking of giving him a twin. Which would be perfect considering Rami has a twin brother, that I forgot about until after I thought about it... Which was just now. XDD lmao
I am gonna give him a twin. :D I was on the fence, but I think it'd be cute if he was the opposite of Anrei and yet they manage to be close, nearly impossible to separate.
I have to finish the app today, which shouldn't be difficult. I just want to be able to play as soon as possible and they only accept/reject apps on certain days. Today is an app review day. So I need to get done after my study.
Until then, I'm gonna fill out wanted line forms for the hell of it incase I do get accepted. I'm supposed to fill out at least one but I have two up my sleeve. A human love interest he can manipulate and eventually fall in love with, the brother and a child Anrei rescued from starvation/being an orphan. Anrei is lonely, and misses his children who were murdered by his sire, so he is partial to children. I think I'll leave it up in the air rather he turned her or allowed her to retain being a human being. So, she'd be about a teen now, which depending on the rules, we'll keep her at 17/18. I think the latter would be better, to be honest.
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Okay! I'm done. Gonna go fill those out until my teacher gets here.
... so, I couldn't post before my teacher got here. XDD annnnd Study was really good today. I learned it didn't rain until the flood, that Jehovah actually had a mist come up from the ground and water vegetation and things that way. Pretty awesome if you ask me.
She wants me to read the story of Rehab, so I can find out what she did to be saved. And also wants me to look up the origins of Halloween. Apparetly the offspring of Angels back then, died during the flood around that time. Halloween is my holiday, so I know I gotta give it up evetually, as I love the shit out of it and it is bad bad bad. I blame my upbringing on all things horror.
Also, October always feels special. Like mystical. There's just a vibe about it.
Okay, now I'm really done. <3
Also, something in the midsection would not be suicide. It was implied he was shot, as Elliot has has not been suicidal in the show, as far as I know. I forgot the trigger warning, I was scatterbrained and I think that's a silly rejection based upon that. Annnnnnd... my tenses do go strange. I'd apologize for it, but it's not serious business, so I don't care.
Honestly, I was hoping I'd get rejected anyway.I'd rather play him on IJ. I'm getting good practice and stuff, so hopefully I'm able to write him without much trouble eventually.
Like I said, not even mad. The only reason I'm wanting is because I don't understand people's need for perfection in writing. Absolutely no one is perfect, and no one is going to be constantly perfect at writing. There's somedays where my writing is great, other days where I suck. My writing style varies. Honestly, it does. I try to stick to the same, for each character but it's hard especially when my moods change.
Anyway, I'm gonna play a vampire using his face if I'm accepted over there. It won't be nearly as crazy as my Elliot personality. ... Which can't be helped. I think as long as it's not those pslad games, I'll be fine. Those tend to lean toward being a little needing to be perfect too, but, buuuuut I've only been rejected from one. That didn't really bother me too much either, just that they didn't give a reason and declined me without one. That's pretty much stupid. Everyone should be given reasons and a chance to revise.
Whenever I run games, I don't even reject. Long as they don't write in first person. I can't stand first person. It's the bane of my existence.
Right DW Rp. I'm tired of worrying about being perfect in my characterization and writing. It's no good for my paranoia, or my brain in general. It's draining. In a few days, I'm going to drop my characters here and enjoy playing elsewhere.
And no, I won't stop writing in you DW journal. I do like dreamwidth for this. Is puuuuuurrrrfect.
Let's talk a little about Vampire!Anrei. He's a psycho, well a somewhat relaxed psycho. He's a bit based off Damon Salvatore. Alcoholic, bloodlust, toys with people, their emotions and their lives. Gets enjoyment out of fucking them up and over. He loves cats, tea, and cigarettes. I think I might change tea to coffee, because he seems like he'd drink a vanilla cap with a cigarette in the evenings after he wakes up from his dirt nap. I'm thinking of giving him a twin. Which would be perfect considering Rami has a twin brother, that I forgot about until after I thought about it... Which was just now. XDD lmao
I am gonna give him a twin. :D I was on the fence, but I think it'd be cute if he was the opposite of Anrei and yet they manage to be close, nearly impossible to separate.
I have to finish the app today, which shouldn't be difficult. I just want to be able to play as soon as possible and they only accept/reject apps on certain days. Today is an app review day. So I need to get done after my study.
Until then, I'm gonna fill out wanted line forms for the hell of it incase I do get accepted. I'm supposed to fill out at least one but I have two up my sleeve. A human love interest he can manipulate and eventually fall in love with, the brother and a child Anrei rescued from starvation/being an orphan. Anrei is lonely, and misses his children who were murdered by his sire, so he is partial to children. I think I'll leave it up in the air rather he turned her or allowed her to retain being a human being. So, she'd be about a teen now, which depending on the rules, we'll keep her at 17/18. I think the latter would be better, to be honest.
'
Okay! I'm done. Gonna go fill those out until my teacher gets here.
... so, I couldn't post before my teacher got here. XDD annnnd Study was really good today. I learned it didn't rain until the flood, that Jehovah actually had a mist come up from the ground and water vegetation and things that way. Pretty awesome if you ask me.
She wants me to read the story of Rehab, so I can find out what she did to be saved. And also wants me to look up the origins of Halloween. Apparetly the offspring of Angels back then, died during the flood around that time. Halloween is my holiday, so I know I gotta give it up evetually, as I love the shit out of it and it is bad bad bad. I blame my upbringing on all things horror.
Also, October always feels special. Like mystical. There's just a vibe about it.
Okay, now I'm really done. <3
