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[waxbox]

So, I have officially given up roleplay. I prayed to Jehovah for strength, and I had the courage to do it. I'm worried about being bored and such to be honest. I don't really have a whole lot of friends or people I talk to or have a lot of other online activities. I'll take up crochetting during a month I can afford a beginner's book and supplies. Might also try learning to draw again, been years since I've really tried. Once I lose about two hundred and fifty pounds, I'd like to learn guitar. Once I stop smoking, I want voice lessons. I'm actually not that bad of singer when I'm not smoking and I figure I actually have potential to sound good. I don't want to be famous or anything. It'd just be nice to sound good, and have a hobby. I could do reenditions for songs as entertainment for witnesses.

I'm addicted to Miley Cyrus' song Malibu. Just a couple word changes and it reminds of me Jehovah and Paradise. I'd love to sing and play that song, with the changes. I am growing spiritually, which is why I had to give up the roleplay. There's no clean way to do it with Jehovah's blessing or standards. I have to abstain, no matter how bored I get. I have lots of reading material to go through and I have a whole bible to learn. Plus music to find that's clean. Movies to find that are clean. Probably gonna get classic films and a dvd player.

It's time, ya know? I've been indecisive and there's a scripture in the bible that I'm pretty sure says: Cleanse your hearts you indescive ones. I have always thought of that scripture and myself. It's fitting. I've never been very good at making decisions. I have faith with Jehovah, it'll get easier with time. I hope to get baptised in the next year/two years. After my sleeve, should be a good time.

Yes, getting the sleeve. Have to go through a regimine with insurance. The doctor and the bariatric clinic. I've been doing so much better. Been really active, sometimes I don't feel as hungry and don't eat as much but today I had way too much to eat. I'm getting better. I've been helping mom with housework, definitely not as depressed. I get up in the mornings, drink coffee and try to study. I promise myself, tomorrow I'm going to eat a small breakfast, have a sandwich for lunch and then fried mushrooms for dinner. I know, bad for me but I love fried mushrooms. My favorite thing.

I've been exercising a little too, trying to get more in but it's painful and irritating. I have to make it routine. In time, it'll feel a lot better and so will I. I canceled my appointment this morning with the doctor but here's to hoping, next month I lose a enough weight and get my knee x-ray. I also have an appointment with a dietician on the 28th of this month. That will be fun. lol Hopefully she can help me. I'd like to lose at least 20-25 lbs by next month. I'm like 547 right now. Might have lost a couple lbs so far. So, we'll see.

I just feel better about life and everything in it. It's taken me a long time to get here. I don't want anything stop me and I'll make sure nothing does. Jehovah is my strength, my strong tower. I want to have faith in that and I will have faith in it.

I also discovered the band Hurts, I'm not sure if they're okay to listen to though. Questionable videos but some heavy christian themes. I heard they're antichristian, so I don't know. Pretty songs though. idk. Anyway, I should end this here. I'll update with progress later. Have a little faith in me~

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[katiedid717]

I'm note sure what kind of music you like to listen to, but singer/songwriter/pianist Vienna Teng has really beautiful music (her first album, "Waking Hour," is a lot of stuff that she wrote between the ages of 17 and 21 - lots of family type stuff). The band Eisley is fun too - originally four siblings and a family friend, although only one of the original members is still in the band now (since they've all grown up, started families, etc). Their older albums have songs that are more imaginative and childlike, whereas the most recent album has a song that the singer wrote about protecting her daughters while they sleep. I also really like A Fine Frenzy (another singer/songwriter) - her albums have a mix of somber/emotional and poppy/fun stuff, and her most recent album was written as an accompaniment to an interactive children's novel she wrote that was released through the iTunes store.

[waxbox]

Thank you for the recommendations! I really do appreciate it. I'm listening too Miss Teng now and I do like her voice. May Jehovah bless you for your kindness in taking the time to help me. I'll check out the other ones too. ^_^

[katiedid717]

I'm always glad to share music recommendations!