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Dec. 27th, 2017 03:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
waxboxSo, my Aunt is here. I always feel like she belongs with us and this time is no different. She needs to move up here asap. I think by me losing weight, getting my license and getting a van she'll feel more comfortable being up here. Heck, I'll just take her and the kids for rides just because. Long as I have gas.
I walked tonight, legs hurt but I'll be okay. Thinking of adding an extra ten seconds to my two minutes or upping it to six times a day. I think I need ten seconds. I'm not getting winded as much anymore.
Donna has this perfume called play it sexy by Playboy and it smells so freaking good. I went on amazon and looked it up. I was expecting like 70-100 bucks but nope, 10.19. MINEMINEMINE. lol I wanted a bottle of Happy by Clinique but I want this stuff instead. I've been taking care of myself more but I've barely bathed in a week. I'm still having a hard time with things. I plan on getting up in the morning and jumping straight in the shower after a coffee and some light bible studying I need to contact my bible teacher and tell her I want to study today. I missed the last three times. Badmmkay.
Well, I haven't given up but the voices were so bad the other night that I broke down and smoked. It would be so much easier if my mom would quit too, to be honest. I don't plan on smoking forever, that's for sure.
Anyway, i know it'll sound like delusions but the voices are I don't even know. They want me to want someone I haven't even spoken to since I was seventeen. I had like a huge crush on him when I was a kid, for like years. I'd get into the story but it's stupid. Then I was sleep deprived at my doctor's appointment the other day and the driving passenger with my medical transport didn't look at all familiar to me because I didn't really get a good look at him. Then he came in to get me and all I honestly thought was that he looked like my little cousin Seth. Then the voices kept talking and I realized it might have been the guy from my childhood. I'd go into details but again, delusions. He just did some stuff that was weird when he came in and it just left me thinking he was looking at me like does he have the right person he's supposed to come in and get.
Basically, delusions are bad mmkay and I'm not about to go psycho stalker lady on someone who probably doesn't even think of me. lmbo
Anyway, about to smell sexy in a few days lol I'm just in a good mood! Also the friend that's living with us washed my big black comforter. I love it so much and I missed it. Gonna be cuddled up with a bunch of blankets tonight. Gonna be so happy. Whoo hoo!
Night everyone.
I walked tonight, legs hurt but I'll be okay. Thinking of adding an extra ten seconds to my two minutes or upping it to six times a day. I think I need ten seconds. I'm not getting winded as much anymore.
Donna has this perfume called play it sexy by Playboy and it smells so freaking good. I went on amazon and looked it up. I was expecting like 70-100 bucks but nope, 10.19. MINEMINEMINE. lol I wanted a bottle of Happy by Clinique but I want this stuff instead. I've been taking care of myself more but I've barely bathed in a week. I'm still having a hard time with things. I plan on getting up in the morning and jumping straight in the shower after a coffee and some light bible studying I need to contact my bible teacher and tell her I want to study today. I missed the last three times. Badmmkay.
Well, I haven't given up but the voices were so bad the other night that I broke down and smoked. It would be so much easier if my mom would quit too, to be honest. I don't plan on smoking forever, that's for sure.
Anyway, i know it'll sound like delusions but the voices are I don't even know. They want me to want someone I haven't even spoken to since I was seventeen. I had like a huge crush on him when I was a kid, for like years. I'd get into the story but it's stupid. Then I was sleep deprived at my doctor's appointment the other day and the driving passenger with my medical transport didn't look at all familiar to me because I didn't really get a good look at him. Then he came in to get me and all I honestly thought was that he looked like my little cousin Seth. Then the voices kept talking and I realized it might have been the guy from my childhood. I'd go into details but again, delusions. He just did some stuff that was weird when he came in and it just left me thinking he was looking at me like does he have the right person he's supposed to come in and get.
Basically, delusions are bad mmkay and I'm not about to go psycho stalker lady on someone who probably doesn't even think of me. lmbo
Anyway, about to smell sexy in a few days lol I'm just in a good mood! Also the friend that's living with us washed my big black comforter. I love it so much and I missed it. Gonna be cuddled up with a bunch of blankets tonight. Gonna be so happy. Whoo hoo!
Night everyone.
