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[waxbox]

I had study today. It went okay. I couldn't focus because of the voices. I know it's gonna get better, just gotta try harder. Oddly saying You got this like Elliot in season 1 of Mr. Robot is helping. As is listening to music and talking to others.

I need an MP3 player, with all my favorite music. Gonna get one here soon.

I think Jehovah knows I'm trying to move too fast with studying, because like, Sharon and I get sidetracked a lot instead of going through the brochure. I'm starting in the What does the Bible really teach book. She said once I get through it, I should be ready to get baptised. However, I want to make sure I get all this done with my weight first. Also reading through Draw Close to Jehovah and learning about Jesus from the other books. There's also reasoning with the scriptures and a book called Learn from their Faith or something.


I want to be prepared to teach. This is saving someone's life. I'm not perfect but I can't screw it up. I have a really hard time remembering scriptures, because of my mental illness.

Anyway. The future looks bright, you know? I know someday I won't have to deal with this. Paradise is coming and I'll be there with all my family members and my brain will be up to par. That's all that really matters.

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[borlandia]

MP3 player would be a good life decision. Always nice to have music.

[waxbox]

Oh, definitely. I've had four of the dang things and they've all died on me. My best one lasted two years and that was a 16 GB sony. It just started being garbled and didn't work no matter what headphones I put in. Anyway, yeah, music makes the world go round. ^_^

[pixelzomblina]

If you don't mind my asking, are you a Jehovah's witness? I was studying with them for a time and would attend the Kingdom Hall, but that was years ago. I did end up going to a Pentecostal church for a time and haven't been to any others in years. Yet I love reading the bible in my own time. The New Living Translation is my favorite because it's easy to read and has very simple English.

It'd be wonderful for you to teach. I use to be a youth leader and it was just so fun! I was that until I started working with kids in detention. They enjoyed reading scripture and sharing it. I use to try to write verses on the chalk board we had a work, but I got in trouble because apparently I couldn't do it? I'd do it again anyway whenever I had a different supervisor. I'd play dumb saying I didn't know that it was wrong. xD

[waxbox]

I've known the truth for a majority of my life, but I'm not one yet. So, yes, I believe in what Jehovah's witnesses believe in. I wouldn't call myself one because I'm not deserving of the title yet in my opinion. ^^ It's really cool that you studied! You should try again, maybe you weren't ready for it back then, but you could be now. I love the new world translation, it's my favorite too. There's a pretty new silver one as well, and even easier to understand. Maybe, you'd like that as well.

It would be, that's what I'm aiming for. That does sound like a good time! I bet that's just as rewarding, both things really help kids on a path they need set by them by good standing adults. At detention or bible school? Suppose I could see why you can't at detention, which is silly. Children need God, just as much as adults do. LOL Bad girl. XP But I understand why you did it. ^_^

[pixelzomblina]

I really did enjoy my time studying with the Jehovah's Witnesses, but there were so many things I did not agree with. I read so many verses and would start questioning a few things. They never got back to me ("we'll look into it") and they were upset that I have found the "right religion" elsewhere. It's not religion that saves/helps you. It's Jesus Christ in which Jehovah God gave us. So they stopped communicating with me. Which, sure I get it. I felt that of all religions that they were the most hypocritical and judgmental, and God is not about that. He's ready to accept you as you are and make you into something more beautiful than you already are. I wouldn't say that you don't "deserve" to call yourself that. Instead you should go into it (associating yourself with them if you believe) knowing that Jehovah will help and guide you towards it.

[waxbox]

I question things too but I love Jehovah enough to search for the answers and wait for him to give me guidance. Usually i eventually see the light. I find that strange, it looks like you didn't have the right teachers imo. I always get answers back eventually. And the JW's I know don't get upset when you find a different religion, but I'm sure they get disappointed when what they've taught doesn't stick to someone.

Oh boy, i do understand that. I will admit that I've noticed some things like that, about being judgmental. I can say my main teacher before moving to the city I'm in now, never liked to judge. She's always been sweet and probably the best JW I know, because she lived in the world. I've been guilty of recently laughing at someone's lack of knowledge with another teacher. How they explained something like that knew it and they really didn't at all, insistent that they were right and pretty much made a fool of themselves. I felt bad afterward. They thought Eve had sex with Satan and that was the first sin. I dunno if you believe that but it's pretty far out of left field. They are also my Uncle and he is very hard headed in everything he does.

Thanks. I agree, he will guide me. and sorry it took so long to get back to you. I wasn't sure how to respond but I needed to be honest. Thanks for being amazing and honest with me. Youre a rally nice person.